After that performance, in which I gave it my all physically and emotionally, my body was of course complaining the next day, but my mind, free.
What a satisfaction it was to perform this solo in Varna. When I asked the ballet master about the message behind this choreography, he told me that M. Goecke (the choreographer) seldom speaks about what he wants to express through his works, and that it often is the dancer's own interpretation. I enjoyed dancing this so so much. I loved the intensity, the inner struggle, then anger, desperation. Those 4 minutes let me to exteriorise so much that I had been covering and keeping inside myself.
After that performance, in which I gave it my all physically and emotionally, my body was of course complaining the next day, but my mind, free.
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My family trip in Paris just ended, this morning I accompanied my parents to the Paris Airport. It was not an easy task, thinking that I will only see them in several months' time......
This family trip has been great. I have always longed to bring my parents to Paris, show them around this city that I love, bring them to my favorite restaurants, show them my favorite spots...... But everyone plays a different role in a group, and each one always looks for something different. I was hoping to have more home-sweet-home talks, and just to spend time together. I'd have loved to have two more days to do that...... But short and little rewards will make me know how to cherish even more. So I am again, alone, still a bit exhausted from all that I've done this summer. And my good friend suggested me to rest, to have some me-time, before starting to work again. Thank you my dear friend, without your message this afternoon, I would have started working straight the way. So she suggested me to watch this very nice movie, the Match Point. This movie was exactly what I needed! The message behind is exactly what I need to understand at this moment, and the plot, terrific! For cinema lovers, I'll let you discover this beautiful movie by yourself. Basically, it's about LUCK, the role of luck in our lives. Then I recall what Eldar Aliev, the Chief Ballet Master of the Mariinsky Theatre, told me when I was in Varna, the day before the prize presentation, he asked: - Do you know what are the 3 elements to success? - hmm..... hard-work?, I replied - yes certainly, and then? - hmm......... - the second element is talent, and the third one? - opportunity? - it's LUCK. Whether it's fair or not, whether we want it this way or not, Luck apparently plays a very important role in everyone lives. It's kind of confusing, it makes you feel weak, hopeless and powerless in front of this matter of luck. Shall we just try our best within all that we can control, accept failures, and just follow the flow? It seems to be part of the human nature to never feel satisfied.
Two before this Varna competition, I discovered that I have a minor tear on my psoas muscle and my doctor suggested me not to do Varna. I then wished to be able to come to Varna and try doing the first Round....... Then, very fortunately, and with the help of different medical professionals, I was able to do the first round without too much pain, and I got admitted to the Second Round! They actually eliminated more than 70% of the candidates for the Second Round, I didn't expect the selection to be so severe. I was satisfied for one second, that I wished to enter the Third and final Round. With much surprise, I entered the third Round! I was overjoyed! And felt satisfied for one day, then the next evening, I had a stage rehearsal for the Third Round. I then got nervous about the results. I pushed myself hard, to make sure that my Third Round was presentable and nice, so that I could have a chance to get a prize. We were no more than 6 senior boys in the final. The final went very well for me! I waited for the results and really wished to be laureate. Then, I was a laureate! I thought, "oh! what could I ask for more?" I felt satisfied and very happy, without knowing what exactly the prize was. On the night of the closing ceremony, it was announced that I got a Special Prize for Outstanding Artistry, while I was hoping to get a medal. I was a bit disappointed, but hey! Stop! Disappointed? Oh Chun Wing, you were so greedy! At the beginning of this story, you couldn't even come to Varna! After each accomplishment you expect even more, and never realise how far you've come from. No expectation, no disappointment. Let's look at what we already have and be grateful. And I shall celebrate, and treat myself well in the coming two weeks of real holiday, finally!~ For being the last survivor and only laureate of the individual senior male group in this year's Varna International Ballet competition. |
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