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September 22nd, 2016

22/9/2016

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It has been strange since last night. While I was preparing my dinner, chopping some vegetables, I slightly cut my finger... This morning just before I wanted to comb my hair, my comb dropped and was broken. My cut finger was not helpful with my wash up, neither. Just 5 minutes before class I found out I had forgotten my soft shoes in my changing room. In a hurry seeking for my abandoned soft shoes, I ran into someone, a dancer, on the way to my changing room. The class went quite well but while I was saying hi to a dancer, I bumped into another dancer, an Etoile, a principal dancer, I hurried to say sorry and of course I flushed. After class I enjoyed a 20 minutes massage, finally something good, and watched the video from last Sunday's gala. I had a terrible moment, I always feel terrible watching myself dance, well, sometimes more than others! Ok, no more rehearsals, time for some practicing. I practiced my Sleeping Beauty variation for my Concours de Promotion as usual. I like practicing a ballet variation and seeing myself improve from day to day. "Enjoy it now that we're not yet in the intense preparation period!", I told myself. But today I didn't do quite well, and it is harder and harder in finding a free studio because everyone starts to prepare for Concours too. I also came up with an offer for a gala in November dancing Blue Bird and another piece. I should feel happy but what I felt at first was frustration, feeling difficult to decide whether to accept the offer or not. How strange I am! 
Okay, now I hope this serie of bad luck ends here. Nothing too bad, isn't it? Everyone experiences this kind of bad luck periods in life. 

This is my second year in the Paris Opera, I always feel extremely nervous talking to people. New dancers from the school arrived in the company and they all seem to have new friends here and talk to other dancers casually. Why do I feel such inner-struggle and nervousness talking to others? Maybe this is just me, the complicated Chun-wing Lam, as sophisticated as his name! 

Tomorrow we are donig the Generale (final dress rehearsal) of the opening of the season. So there will be the famous "Defile du Corps de Ballet" (parade of the dancers) that I love. I am very excited to that! Sunday I am going to perform in Arcachon, gala again. Below two private videos of my practicing from yesterday and today. 
3 Comments
Invisible Wings
25/9/2016 06:22:48 am

I guess the language barrier makes you nervous to talk to other people. It's hard! I'll watch the videos when I get on my laptop. They don't show up on my phone.

About the series of "accidents", it seems your concentration is a little compromised. Maybe you are tired or a little sick without obvious symptoms. Please pace your self!

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Michael
26/9/2016 07:51:17 pm

Hi Chun Wing,

I'm sorry to hear about the cut finger, bumped dancers, and other forms of bad luck. Try not to worry as, yes, sometimes incidents pile up at once. They will pass. When it comes to being nervous speaking to other people, remember that everyone else is dealing with their own insecurities, stresses and anxieties. Things might appear tranquil and easy for others when, in fact, they are not. Next time you talk with someone maybe try to pay attention to how they are feeling and see where you might fit in? Perhaps it won't be speaking you'll be doing but listening! I hope this makes sense.

All best to you.
Michael

P.S. Don't underestimate that people might be nervous about speaking to you...indeed you are the sophisticated & complicated Chun-wing Lam!

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Lily
8/10/2016 09:19:37 am

Hi Chun Wing ,
Hope you are feeling better these days...

Being in a ballet company is never a simple thing in terms of relationships especially for you as you're not in your own country and as the Paris opera ballet doesn't have a lot of foreigners ... You may feel a bit different from the others and that's completely normal.

I can understand how you can feel uncomfortable with all those new people... I guess it is very impressive to be with all those great artists !

Furthermore, you may not have the same hobbies and interests out of ballet and so when the rehearsal are finished you kind of don't have anything to do anymore with them ... :(
As an introvert I've often experienced that kind of things ... ( not going to parties with colleagues and so on ...)

I hope you will feel better soon and that you will find your place and adapt in this amazing company.

Keep going ! You are doing a great job !
Always supporting you !
Good luck for the Concours🍀!
Lily

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