It has been strange since last night. While I was preparing my dinner, chopping some vegetables, I slightly cut my finger... This morning just before I wanted to comb my hair, my comb dropped and was broken. My cut finger was not helpful with my wash up, neither. Just 5 minutes before class I found out I had forgotten my soft shoes in my changing room. In a hurry seeking for my abandoned soft shoes, I ran into someone, a dancer, on the way to my changing room. The class went quite well but while I was saying hi to a dancer, I bumped into another dancer, an Etoile, a principal dancer, I hurried to say sorry and of course I flushed. After class I enjoyed a 20 minutes massage, finally something good, and watched the video from last Sunday's gala. I had a terrible moment, I always feel terrible watching myself dance, well, sometimes more than others! Ok, no more rehearsals, time for some practicing. I practiced my Sleeping Beauty variation for my Concours de Promotion as usual. I like practicing a ballet variation and seeing myself improve from day to day. "Enjoy it now that we're not yet in the intense preparation period!", I told myself. But today I didn't do quite well, and it is harder and harder in finding a free studio because everyone starts to prepare for Concours too. I also came up with an offer for a gala in November dancing Blue Bird and another piece. I should feel happy but what I felt at first was frustration, feeling difficult to decide whether to accept the offer or not. How strange I am!
Okay, now I hope this serie of bad luck ends here. Nothing too bad, isn't it? Everyone experiences this kind of bad luck periods in life.
This is my second year in the Paris Opera, I always feel extremely nervous talking to people. New dancers from the school arrived in the company and they all seem to have new friends here and talk to other dancers casually. Why do I feel such inner-struggle and nervousness talking to others? Maybe this is just me, the complicated Chun-wing Lam, as sophisticated as his name!
Tomorrow we are donig the Generale (final dress rehearsal) of the opening of the season. So there will be the famous "Defile du Corps de Ballet" (parade of the dancers) that I love. I am very excited to that! Sunday I am going to perform in Arcachon, gala again. Below two private videos of my practicing from yesterday and today.
Okay, now I hope this serie of bad luck ends here. Nothing too bad, isn't it? Everyone experiences this kind of bad luck periods in life.
This is my second year in the Paris Opera, I always feel extremely nervous talking to people. New dancers from the school arrived in the company and they all seem to have new friends here and talk to other dancers casually. Why do I feel such inner-struggle and nervousness talking to others? Maybe this is just me, the complicated Chun-wing Lam, as sophisticated as his name!
Tomorrow we are donig the Generale (final dress rehearsal) of the opening of the season. So there will be the famous "Defile du Corps de Ballet" (parade of the dancers) that I love. I am very excited to that! Sunday I am going to perform in Arcachon, gala again. Below two private videos of my practicing from yesterday and today.
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