Two before this Varna competition, I discovered that I have a minor tear on my psoas muscle and my doctor suggested me not to do Varna. I then wished to be able to come to Varna and try doing the first Round.......
Then, very fortunately, and with the help of different medical professionals, I was able to do the first round without too much pain, and I got admitted to the Second Round! They actually eliminated more than 70% of the candidates for the Second Round, I didn't expect the selection to be so severe. I was satisfied for one second, that I wished to enter the Third and final Round.
With much surprise, I entered the third Round! I was overjoyed! And felt satisfied for one day, then the next evening, I had a stage rehearsal for the Third Round. I then got nervous about the results.
I pushed myself hard, to make sure that my Third Round was presentable and nice, so that I could have a chance to get a prize. We were no more than 6 senior boys in the final.
The final went very well for me! I waited for the results and really wished to be laureate. Then, I was a laureate! I thought, "oh! what could I ask for more?" I felt satisfied and very happy, without knowing what exactly the prize was.
On the night of the closing ceremony, it was announced that I got a Special Prize for Outstanding Artistry, while I was hoping to get a medal. I was a bit disappointed, but hey! Stop! Disappointed? Oh Chun Wing, you were so greedy! At the beginning of this story, you couldn't even come to Varna! After each accomplishment you expect even more, and never realise how far you've come from.
No expectation, no disappointment. Let's look at what we already have and be grateful.
And I shall celebrate, and treat myself well in the coming two weeks of real holiday, finally!~ For being the last survivor and only laureate of the individual senior male group in this year's Varna International Ballet competition.