Since the Concours, I have been thinking a lot, thinking about my role/my place in this big big company, about how I could improve as a dancer, as a person in general, as someone who work at the Opera de Paris, about my future too: will I always work for ballet? Do I want to try something else? About my goal in this company, do I want to be an Etoile? Could I? Or would I prefer a "less stressful" life dancing in the corps de ballet?.......... The thing is, since I have been very busy since the end of the Concours, I didn't really have much time to think all these things over. Meanwhile, I continue with my busy dancer routine everyday: alarm wakes me, class, rehearsal for gala, lunch/quick sandwich, swan lake rehearsal, break, swan lake rehearsal, dinner, stretching, bed......
So, tomorrow, gala near Bordeaux. This gala was prepared in a very short time. I thought we woud never finish learning all the steps and have all the technique perfected. But in turned out that I feel quite ready for it. There's a lot of partnering in this gala. Partnering is not always easy, it doesn't only depend on you, but on your partner too. The communication between the two of us is very important. And when we are not a very experienced dancer, it could be tough. After tomorrow's performance, I should feel better, I will have less pressure.
Tonight was our first stage rehearsal of Swan Lake in Opera Bastille. I dance in the corps de ballet as usual. This time there's quite a lot of partnering in Nuryev's choreography. I think I didn't do quite well yesterday rehearsing in studio in Garnier and it made me very nervous, I just don't want to be a bad partner! Fortunately tonight's rehearsal went well. It is impressive how our mood could change radically in one single day! Sometimes life brings us different problems to overcome in one single day, making us feel very bad and stressed, and the next day all problems could be solved!