I know I have been away for a while on this blog. But it is for a good reason. I concentrated on the preparation of my Varna International Ballet Competition. It is 14th July today, but I will probably post this after the two-weeks competition. As I don't want to have extra pressure, and I wanted to stick with the reason that pushed me to sign up for this big ballet event: I want to continue in my own path, regardless of what others do or would think.
I knew that joining this competition will be good for my career in so many ways. This was obvious to me, I had no doubt of it. However, I thought of so many reasons (or excuses) why doing it this year is not a good moment. For example, this year I am not the only one from the Paris Opera to do it, I was coming back from serious injuries, I had been studying...... it was a bit late to start preparing..... etc. etc.
But I got tired of all these excuses and I am not the type of person who doesn't dare to give opportunities a try. So, although I really don't like competing, especially in ballet and partly against my colleagues in Paris, I signed up for this competition on the day of the deadline.
Not thinking about the results when you are joining a competition is however, a bit complicated. I even slightly injured my psoas again two weeks ago, and I panicked so much! Very fortunately, today I am grateful that at least I know that I will be able to dance there, even with a little pain.
Now, I am having my dinner at the canteen of the Opera. I had some light coaching this morning, went back home to pack and pack and pack, then now came back to Opera to do the last show of La Fille Mal Gardee. I will leave tomorrow morning at 4:30am for Varna. But I haven't finished packing, at all!! Good luck to myself for the packing.
Now, I just wanted to remind myself of my initial motivation of doing this competition: I stay in my own path, do what I have to do and what is right for ME.
14th July, 7:16pm. Canteen of the Opera.
I knew that joining this competition will be good for my career in so many ways. This was obvious to me, I had no doubt of it. However, I thought of so many reasons (or excuses) why doing it this year is not a good moment. For example, this year I am not the only one from the Paris Opera to do it, I was coming back from serious injuries, I had been studying...... it was a bit late to start preparing..... etc. etc.
But I got tired of all these excuses and I am not the type of person who doesn't dare to give opportunities a try. So, although I really don't like competing, especially in ballet and partly against my colleagues in Paris, I signed up for this competition on the day of the deadline.
Not thinking about the results when you are joining a competition is however, a bit complicated. I even slightly injured my psoas again two weeks ago, and I panicked so much! Very fortunately, today I am grateful that at least I know that I will be able to dance there, even with a little pain.
Now, I am having my dinner at the canteen of the Opera. I had some light coaching this morning, went back home to pack and pack and pack, then now came back to Opera to do the last show of La Fille Mal Gardee. I will leave tomorrow morning at 4:30am for Varna. But I haven't finished packing, at all!! Good luck to myself for the packing.
Now, I just wanted to remind myself of my initial motivation of doing this competition: I stay in my own path, do what I have to do and what is right for ME.
14th July, 7:16pm. Canteen of the Opera.
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