This event was very unusual for me and for a dancer. I was also supposed to be nervous for it. And so was I, several hours before the event.
When I woke up that morning, I looked through the windows and noticed how the colour of the sky is particular: a purplish pink, a little bit of gray and very luminous. This light reminds me of that of the time after my dance exam in Ecole de Danse. Then I wonder whether I intentionally look at the sky during these special moments, or by any chance the sky light is special only when I have special events.
Anyway, I had no time to think about this further. I needed to prepare for the event. I had little time, and I couldn't be late! No question. So it was quite a rush in order to have everything well prepared under this purplish day light.
-"Chun Wing, you are well prepared, you've done all you could for this"
-"Chun Wing, you have no reason to be nervous, it's a wonderful experience! It's new and fresh!"
-"Chun Wing, it's going to be great and they will like you!"
-"You are confident, you know what you're doing, you are the best, you are so ready for this, you are so relaxed and happy, you feel great, they will feel great, it's going to be extraordinary....."
I then went to my favorite Chinese restaurant in Paris for lunch. There I felt exhausted. It is exhausting being nervous isn't it? It was supposed to be a day off, I could have been on my bed until noon, or on my sofa in front of a movie, or savouring chocolates in the kitchen......
Now I know myself better, I need challenges and to be busy all the time!